1 00:01:27,950 --> 00:01:28,950 What's up? 2 00:02:20,910 --> 00:02:27,910 Come on get it done faster come out into the light my child You come over 3 00:02:27,910 --> 00:02:33,450 here in the dark and this might go a little quicker Not gonna get me spend 4 00:02:33,450 --> 00:02:40,350 any more time in the dark anymore during this lifetime it takes a lot of work 5 00:02:40,350 --> 00:02:47,290 to Decisions stay out here Get a little 6 00:02:47,290 --> 00:02:48,770 God's vitamin D on you 7 00:03:30,560 --> 00:03:34,640 Who broke the tip of that, uh, on that oil refill? 8 00:03:35,540 --> 00:03:36,540 Did you break that? 9 00:03:37,260 --> 00:03:38,260 Oh, it was the Mexican. 10 00:03:39,440 --> 00:03:41,260 The Mexican would have said something, don't you think? 11 00:03:42,260 --> 00:03:45,860 No, I don't. Did you break it and just not tell anybody you broke it? Now 12 00:03:45,860 --> 00:03:47,520 you're blaming it on the Mexican? Don't be an ass. 13 00:04:02,830 --> 00:04:06,850 So the first 60 years they weren't so hot. I said the most famous paramilitary 14 00:04:06,850 --> 00:04:11,770 force to come out in the last hundred years was an Irish paramilitary force. 15 00:04:12,330 --> 00:04:13,690 You've never heard of the IRA? 16 00:04:14,070 --> 00:04:17,610 What age are you? I've heard of the Green Berets. 17 00:04:18,410 --> 00:04:21,890 The IRA was just Irish killing Irish, wasn't it? 18 00:04:22,590 --> 00:04:23,590 Not exactly. 19 00:04:24,130 --> 00:04:25,130 They went somewhere? 20 00:04:28,070 --> 00:04:31,350 That's all we hear about here is Irish killing Irish. I'm just waiting for a 21 00:04:31,350 --> 00:04:33,750 car to pull in here so I can avoid the history lesson. 22 00:04:34,010 --> 00:04:39,510 I mean, this is... Over here, we don't... You know, they don't say, well, 23 00:04:39,670 --> 00:04:43,630 we're going to send the IRA in. We send the Green Berets in. 24 00:04:43,890 --> 00:04:47,530 First of all, what I'm saying, paramilitary, we're not talking about a 25 00:04:47,530 --> 00:04:51,430 regular military. We're talking about a guerrilla force, right? 26 00:04:51,730 --> 00:04:54,230 Well, they don't send them out, though, right? They can't send the guerrillas 27 00:04:54,230 --> 00:04:55,230 out. 28 00:04:57,120 --> 00:05:02,580 No, they don't send them into the the the conflicts that We started out 29 00:05:02,580 --> 00:05:07,360 talking about that's true. Yeah I'm just trying to keep up with you. Your brain 30 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:14,120 is lightning fast this morning But if you want it so I 31 00:05:14,120 --> 00:05:20,040 don't understand that So you got a reputation, but it's not necessarily for 32 00:05:20,040 --> 00:05:21,040 helping other people out 33 00:05:25,580 --> 00:05:28,460 Why am I even talking to you about this shit at this hour in the morning? 34 00:05:28,660 --> 00:05:30,680 Is there some work to do or something? 35 00:05:31,900 --> 00:05:33,500 Is Irish Marines? 36 00:05:37,540 --> 00:05:39,620 I mean, how tough can an Irishman be? 37 00:06:25,390 --> 00:06:26,390 Don't worry about it. 38 00:07:58,250 --> 00:07:59,250 Okay, what would you like? 39 00:08:00,450 --> 00:08:05,410 Well, I'd really like something with custard in it. What's in those custards 40 00:08:05,410 --> 00:08:06,950 right there? Is there really custard in there? 41 00:08:07,190 --> 00:08:08,270 There's lemon, actually. 42 00:08:08,530 --> 00:08:09,530 In those? 43 00:08:09,990 --> 00:08:11,030 Lemon? Yeah. 44 00:08:11,710 --> 00:08:12,710 Yeah, donuts. 45 00:08:12,810 --> 00:08:15,790 Yeah. Okay, how about in the cherry? What's in the cherry? 46 00:08:20,470 --> 00:08:25,090 This is when we begin to understand the rule of chaos. 47 00:08:26,170 --> 00:08:27,690 It looks infected, doesn't it? 48 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:29,760 It's disgusting. 49 00:08:29,940 --> 00:08:31,100 Some people like lemon. 50 00:08:32,500 --> 00:08:37,740 But if some people like lemon, then why is there 40 lemons here and none of the 51 00:08:37,740 --> 00:08:38,639 yellow custard? 52 00:08:38,640 --> 00:08:39,640 They just weren't here today. 53 00:08:39,820 --> 00:08:43,380 Is there anyone with cinnamon? What are those? Oh, no, those. Give me one of 54 00:08:43,380 --> 00:08:44,380 those cinnamon, please. 55 00:08:46,020 --> 00:08:47,140 Yeah, that'll be fine. 56 00:08:47,920 --> 00:08:48,920 Yeah. 57 00:08:49,460 --> 00:08:50,460 Thank you. 58 00:08:58,480 --> 00:09:00,120 In the morning, it's all organized. 59 00:09:00,600 --> 00:09:02,780 They have everything that they say they have. 60 00:09:05,280 --> 00:09:06,280 What do you expect? 61 00:09:06,460 --> 00:09:08,460 It's not late afternoon food. 62 00:09:15,120 --> 00:09:20,260 That's a daily routine, that little song and dance to get a donut? 63 00:09:21,540 --> 00:09:27,040 No, I normally don't come in here at this time. I just thought we could have 64 00:09:27,040 --> 00:09:28,660 a little Male bonding. 65 00:09:31,300 --> 00:09:34,140 92 Foxtrot, a petroleum supply specialist. 66 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:41,180 Petroleum... What's that? 67 00:09:41,700 --> 00:09:42,700 Refueling? 68 00:09:43,380 --> 00:09:44,380 More or less. 69 00:09:44,780 --> 00:09:46,020 Where? In Iraq? 70 00:09:47,560 --> 00:09:49,860 Kandahar. Know where that is? In Afghanistan? 71 00:09:50,340 --> 00:09:51,340 Mm-hmm. 72 00:09:54,340 --> 00:09:56,620 We feed the juice into the, uh... 73 00:09:57,000 --> 00:09:58,000 Into the machine. 74 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:01,300 Weapons? 75 00:10:04,360 --> 00:10:11,180 You know, we maintain, we repair supply lines, tactical storage, bulk 76 00:10:11,180 --> 00:10:12,180 storage, 77 00:10:12,280 --> 00:10:17,380 valves, hoses, pipelines, everything. 78 00:10:18,120 --> 00:10:19,380 For what machines? 79 00:10:20,160 --> 00:10:25,040 I was attached to an airborne battalion, so I was... 80 00:10:25,400 --> 00:10:30,560 Mostly operating with Blackhawks, Apaches, and attack helicopters. 81 00:10:31,420 --> 00:10:37,280 How did you get in... So you were in our military? 82 00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:39,420 Army? Army? 83 00:10:39,760 --> 00:10:40,739 National Guard. 84 00:10:40,740 --> 00:10:41,599 National Guard? 85 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:44,700 Hmm. How did you get to be in our Army? 86 00:10:45,200 --> 00:10:46,640 Same as anybody else. 87 00:10:47,300 --> 00:10:49,720 You can just do it? Basic education. 88 00:10:50,060 --> 00:10:51,760 Meet the moral legal standards. 89 00:10:53,000 --> 00:10:55,460 I don't know if you'd make it, but... Uh-huh. 90 00:10:58,460 --> 00:10:59,780 How long were you over there? 91 00:11:00,840 --> 00:11:01,840 12 months. 92 00:11:04,680 --> 00:11:05,760 That's it, 12 months? 93 00:11:07,480 --> 00:11:08,540 On an airfield. 94 00:11:09,040 --> 00:11:11,440 Where was the airfield? In like... Kandahar. 95 00:11:12,420 --> 00:11:14,640 Was that near lines? 96 00:11:14,960 --> 00:11:16,280 Near front lines? 97 00:11:16,960 --> 00:11:18,320 No, it was non-combat. 98 00:11:18,820 --> 00:11:21,660 I went in non-combat. That's what that MOS is. 99 00:11:21,860 --> 00:11:23,040 It's non-combat. 100 00:11:23,390 --> 00:11:25,070 How is that non-combat? 101 00:11:25,790 --> 00:11:28,350 Well, it's technically non-combat. 102 00:11:29,230 --> 00:11:34,030 You were in Kandahar in the last year, two years. 103 00:11:36,510 --> 00:11:40,190 And you were serving in the military. That's kind of combat, isn't it? 104 00:11:40,430 --> 00:11:43,970 Well, you have to make a distinction between being at war and being in 105 00:11:43,970 --> 00:11:45,390 combat. They're two different things. 106 00:11:46,750 --> 00:11:47,750 What's the difference? 107 00:11:51,920 --> 00:11:53,380 Is it not self-evident? 108 00:11:54,520 --> 00:11:58,080 Some people go out and fight on the front line, shoot guns, and some people 109 00:11:58,080 --> 00:12:00,620 keep them supplied. I'm part of the supply line. 110 00:12:00,840 --> 00:12:02,760 By extension, you're in combat, though. 111 00:12:03,400 --> 00:12:07,140 It's a sense of it. You've got the sense of being in combat, right? 112 00:12:08,960 --> 00:12:10,700 I mean, it's a distinction. 113 00:12:12,360 --> 00:12:18,180 I refuel people so they'd come back, so they'd make it home. You were refueling 114 00:12:18,180 --> 00:12:19,180 people so they would... 115 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:22,480 do a little human destruction as well, right? 116 00:12:23,740 --> 00:12:26,300 But we do it to save people. 117 00:12:28,560 --> 00:12:29,560 Save who? 118 00:12:34,840 --> 00:12:36,960 Which is to say I believed in the mission. 119 00:12:38,340 --> 00:12:45,320 Why would you look at it as saving when the reason you're there, the 120 00:12:45,320 --> 00:12:46,840 reason we're there is not to save? 121 00:12:47,220 --> 00:12:48,220 Of course it is. 122 00:12:48,569 --> 00:12:50,870 Well, if it was to save him, we would just stay over here, right? 123 00:12:52,630 --> 00:12:58,930 So the reason you go over there is to... is to kill a certain group of people. 124 00:13:01,550 --> 00:13:02,550 That's not the end. 125 00:13:02,630 --> 00:13:04,630 That's not the... That's the means to the end. 126 00:13:04,870 --> 00:13:06,910 Right, but that's what you're doing on a daily basis. 127 00:13:09,090 --> 00:13:12,450 That's what... Yeah, that's the operation, obviously. We're trying to 128 00:13:12,450 --> 00:13:13,450 route out those guys. 129 00:13:13,930 --> 00:13:16,210 Yeah, I'm just trying to figure out why you're so weepy. 130 00:17:04,099 --> 00:17:05,720 Yeah. What's happening? 131 00:17:06,780 --> 00:17:07,780 Fine. 132 00:17:08,920 --> 00:17:10,060 All groovy? 133 00:17:11,920 --> 00:17:12,920 Fine. 134 00:17:13,300 --> 00:17:14,300 Hey, you alright? 135 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:16,060 Yeah, you're fine. 136 00:17:49,350 --> 00:17:50,350 Got your keys? 137 00:17:51,910 --> 00:17:53,510 No. Huh? 138 00:17:54,930 --> 00:17:55,930 Got your keys? 139 00:17:56,030 --> 00:17:57,030 Yeah. 140 00:17:59,070 --> 00:17:59,590 Drive 141 00:17:59,590 --> 00:18:07,110 slow 142 00:18:07,110 --> 00:18:08,110 and steady. 143 00:18:08,890 --> 00:18:10,650 Seatbelt. Got it. 144 00:18:11,310 --> 00:18:13,030 And how about coffee in the morning? 145 00:18:13,630 --> 00:18:14,650 Yeah, that'd be nice. 146 00:18:15,390 --> 00:18:16,390 Good. 147 00:20:31,020 --> 00:20:32,100 Hey, man, you all right? 148 00:20:33,780 --> 00:20:34,780 Mm-hmm. 149 00:20:37,180 --> 00:20:43,940 Something's... Something's bothering you from... from the war? 150 00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:46,620 No, no, it's not that. 151 00:20:50,340 --> 00:20:52,220 No, I... I liked it there. 152 00:20:53,780 --> 00:20:55,760 I liked being in there. 153 00:22:57,740 --> 00:22:58,740 Hey buddy. 154 00:23:00,760 --> 00:23:01,760 How you doing? 155 00:23:02,680 --> 00:23:03,680 I'm alright. 156 00:23:05,060 --> 00:23:06,060 Thanks. 157 00:23:07,520 --> 00:23:08,520 You alright? 158 00:23:09,060 --> 00:23:10,060 Yeah. 159 00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:12,760 You doing alright? 160 00:23:16,460 --> 00:23:17,460 Cheers. 161 00:24:41,680 --> 00:24:45,020 I'm going to prescribe you a high-potency benzodiazepine. 162 00:24:45,700 --> 00:24:48,520 I'm going to give you a prescription for that. Is that all right with you? 163 00:24:49,440 --> 00:24:52,120 Yeah, if you think that's what it's going to take, then I'm going to try it. 164 00:24:54,900 --> 00:24:55,900 353. 165 00:25:14,410 --> 00:25:15,410 Thanks. 166 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,780 What about the red? You like the red? 167 00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:56,480 You see 168 00:26:56,480 --> 00:27:02,860 the flame on the building? 169 00:27:07,889 --> 00:27:09,490 Yeah, I see that. That's the heat. 170 00:27:10,050 --> 00:27:11,970 See that? It looks like water. 171 00:27:12,210 --> 00:27:13,270 Yeah, it looks like water. 172 00:27:14,030 --> 00:27:18,390 But that fire, I know, the smoke looks like water. 173 00:27:18,730 --> 00:27:19,950 Who played you was in? 174 00:27:20,570 --> 00:27:23,210 Madison will show me how to do that. 175 00:27:23,410 --> 00:27:24,410 Oh, she did? 176 00:27:24,550 --> 00:27:25,550 Uh-huh. 177 00:27:25,790 --> 00:27:26,790 What'd she show you? 178 00:27:29,130 --> 00:27:30,390 Don't hit the fire. 179 00:27:33,090 --> 00:27:35,370 Oh, she taught you how to stand on your head. 180 00:27:35,570 --> 00:27:36,570 Uh-huh. 181 00:27:39,210 --> 00:27:41,310 One, two, three, four, five. Let me see. 182 00:28:08,650 --> 00:28:09,650 Yeah. 183 00:29:26,960 --> 00:29:27,960 Can I help you? 184 00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:30,560 Excuse me, can I help you? 185 00:29:39,020 --> 00:29:40,020 You looking for Sean? 186 00:29:45,060 --> 00:29:46,100 You all right, man? 187 00:29:50,260 --> 00:29:51,520 Can you hear me? 188 00:29:53,900 --> 00:29:54,900 Excuse me. 189 00:30:10,220 --> 00:30:11,220 Need some help? 190 00:30:20,260 --> 00:30:26,900 What are you doing here? 191 00:30:27,440 --> 00:30:28,500 Hey, Sean. How you doing? 192 00:30:28,820 --> 00:30:29,820 Hey. 193 00:30:29,940 --> 00:30:30,940 Know this guy? 194 00:30:31,680 --> 00:30:32,820 Yeah, I work with this guy. 195 00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:36,860 Okay. Walking around the house like you're trying to break in or something. 196 00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:38,060 I didn't know what was going on. 197 00:30:38,830 --> 00:30:40,030 I don't know what he's doing here. 198 00:30:41,770 --> 00:30:43,030 What are you doing here? Let's go. 199 00:30:46,970 --> 00:30:48,270 After your cup of tea or something? 200 00:30:48,510 --> 00:30:51,410 No, I don't think. I was just worried about what he was doing around here. 201 00:30:51,870 --> 00:30:53,410 Did you just follow him the whole way around? 202 00:30:53,630 --> 00:30:54,630 Yeah. 203 00:30:55,830 --> 00:30:57,850 Yeah, he looked in through about every window. 204 00:30:59,830 --> 00:31:01,230 Hey, thanks for looking out, man. 205 00:31:01,590 --> 00:31:02,650 Appreciate it. You're welcome. Anytime. 206 00:31:02,990 --> 00:31:04,670 Appreciate it. Neighbors fun, yeah. 207 00:31:19,340 --> 00:31:20,340 Feel very good. 208 00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:21,360 You woke me. 209 00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:24,400 That's not very optimistic of you, a single bed in there. 210 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:30,240 I only just got here. I've only been here a few weeks. 211 00:31:30,620 --> 00:31:36,000 Well, like I say, it's the seed you plant today that is your future. 212 00:31:38,200 --> 00:31:42,540 Tell me about this guy, Walt Whitman. 213 00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:46,860 Say something he said. 214 00:31:50,250 --> 00:31:51,270 Captain my captain. 215 00:31:51,830 --> 00:31:58,790 Oh, yeah, I've seen that in the movie Secular Saint yeah, 216 00:31:58,890 --> 00:32:05,130 it looks like it's like He's supposed to look like a saint or like a monk or like 217 00:32:05,130 --> 00:32:12,010 a lot of people say oh That's what God looks like We can't know what God looks 218 00:32:12,010 --> 00:32:17,250 like It's something you can be sure of that's what I like to look on man 219 00:32:19,050 --> 00:32:22,810 I like to look on woman, but with the chaste eye. 220 00:32:24,710 --> 00:32:30,550 I understand what you mean when you say man. I can see how you're dressed. 221 00:32:33,570 --> 00:32:38,670 Once you get outside of a certain book, there's no stopping it, you know? You 222 00:32:38,670 --> 00:32:40,090 can just keep going and going and going. 223 00:32:41,210 --> 00:32:44,690 That's what's so wonderful about it, surely. 224 00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:49,080 No, I guess I'd have to disagree with you there. 225 00:32:49,920 --> 00:32:55,380 The wonderful thing is to have your life and your world and your focus condensed 226 00:32:55,380 --> 00:32:59,360 to one thing, and you just keep zeroing in, zeroing in. 227 00:32:59,620 --> 00:33:06,560 You'll never figure out meaning, never figure out where you're going if you 228 00:33:06,560 --> 00:33:08,520 just keep looking at a new place all the time. 229 00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:15,120 When there's one place, there's one place that you can look, and you can 230 00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:16,120 look forever. 231 00:33:16,540 --> 00:33:19,520 When you don't know where you're going, all roads lead you there, that's for 232 00:33:19,520 --> 00:33:20,520 sure. 233 00:33:20,560 --> 00:33:22,120 All roads are worth walking. 234 00:33:29,180 --> 00:33:33,180 But you can't walk all roads, so there has to be a worthlessness to some of 235 00:33:33,180 --> 00:33:34,180 them. 236 00:33:37,180 --> 00:33:40,460 But the Bible, though, you got a Humvee, you don't have to walk. 237 00:33:42,260 --> 00:33:44,320 Yeah, I've ridden in a Humvee and I've walked. 238 00:33:45,160 --> 00:33:46,380 I know which one I prefer. 239 00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:47,280 Refill, take about like three minutes and we'll go back out. 240 00:35:47,820 --> 00:35:49,100 Hey my teammate surrendered. 241 00:35:50,100 --> 00:35:51,180 That's why I need to surrender. 242 00:35:51,580 --> 00:35:52,580 Not on my team. 243 00:36:31,620 --> 00:36:32,620 Amen. 244 00:36:33,380 --> 00:36:34,400 Let's do a little grace. 245 00:36:35,340 --> 00:36:36,380 Oh, excuse me. 246 00:36:48,380 --> 00:36:49,820 Amen. Amen. 247 00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:56,460 Beautiful. Thank you, brother. 248 00:36:57,470 --> 00:36:59,190 Have any of y'all ever paintballed with a woman? 249 00:37:01,870 --> 00:37:03,010 Me neither. 250 00:37:06,750 --> 00:37:08,390 I know a couple I think would be good. 251 00:37:12,650 --> 00:37:14,550 I don't know if I could do it, shoot a woman. 252 00:37:15,370 --> 00:37:16,370 Well, I could. 253 00:37:19,330 --> 00:37:20,330 It's legal. 254 00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:36,460 So we'll get you to come out again, huh? 255 00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:38,000 Yeah, that'd be nice. 256 00:37:40,300 --> 00:37:41,860 You know what kind of shape you gotta be in. 257 00:37:43,560 --> 00:37:45,320 You guys are pretty good on the hold, aren't you? 258 00:37:46,620 --> 00:37:47,620 It's fine, man. 259 00:37:48,180 --> 00:37:51,660 You really feel what it's all about out there, you know? 260 00:37:52,660 --> 00:37:53,660 In the woods. 261 00:39:48,109 --> 00:39:49,790 Play a whole little song, Steve. 262 00:39:55,930 --> 00:39:58,290 Ricky was saying Steve's friends got married on that island. 263 00:40:06,049 --> 00:40:07,049 Hey, 264 00:40:08,570 --> 00:40:11,010 Walt. Hey, Sean. How are you, man? You want to come in? 265 00:40:11,390 --> 00:40:12,390 No. 266 00:40:12,850 --> 00:40:19,570 My mom got this cat, and the 267 00:40:19,570 --> 00:40:23,850 cat's not doing too good, and we got the kids. 268 00:40:24,730 --> 00:40:28,350 And we don't want the cat to get sick or die around the kids. 269 00:40:28,570 --> 00:40:30,090 I got cat allergies. 270 00:40:31,470 --> 00:40:33,830 Well, are you sure? 271 00:40:34,050 --> 00:40:37,470 Because I really need someone to take the cat in. 272 00:40:38,770 --> 00:40:40,710 I never cared for a living thing, Walt. 273 00:42:02,090 --> 00:42:03,650 Left front, left rear. 274 00:42:35,950 --> 00:42:37,290 Put your nuts back on, boy. 275 00:42:39,630 --> 00:42:45,710 Screw her. Screw her. Harder. Harder. Get the nuts out your hand and onto the 276 00:42:45,710 --> 00:42:46,710 car. 277 00:42:47,830 --> 00:42:49,630 Tighten it up. Tell me when we're ready for this one. 278 00:42:52,090 --> 00:42:53,090 We're good. 279 00:42:54,170 --> 00:42:56,910 Huh? We're good for the next one. Good for the next one? 280 00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:29,620 Come on, come on. 281 00:43:32,340 --> 00:43:33,880 I'm hungry. Aren't you hungry? 282 00:43:34,680 --> 00:43:35,680 Didn't you work up an appetite? 283 00:43:43,540 --> 00:43:44,540 Some minors. 284 00:43:44,560 --> 00:43:46,100 Huh? You got any minors? 285 00:43:46,340 --> 00:43:48,520 Yeah, I'm walking on the outside of the street. I'm supposed to let the lady 286 00:43:48,520 --> 00:43:50,520 walk on the inside of the street, and I'm walking on the outside of the 287 00:43:50,520 --> 00:43:51,520 street. 288 00:43:51,920 --> 00:43:53,160 I was raised a gentleman. 289 00:43:54,900 --> 00:43:56,060 Against all odds. 290 00:43:59,210 --> 00:44:03,730 Thank you Thank you 291 00:44:28,650 --> 00:44:31,310 You know, totally slipped my mind to say grace today. Yeah. 292 00:44:33,630 --> 00:44:40,410 That, I'm afraid, is the kind of Christian I 293 00:44:40,410 --> 00:44:41,810 am sometimes. 294 00:44:47,350 --> 00:44:48,350 It's good. 295 00:44:49,250 --> 00:44:54,390 You know, the grace I remember from when we were kids was really simple. 296 00:44:54,810 --> 00:44:57,090 Thanks be to God. God bless the cook. 297 00:44:59,379 --> 00:45:03,140 I'm sure, you know, I feel pretty right. 298 00:45:04,640 --> 00:45:08,880 But, you know, in the twinkling of an eye, you never know. 299 00:45:09,740 --> 00:45:12,100 Right there, right there, right here at lunch. 300 00:45:13,700 --> 00:45:14,700 Mouthful of BLT. 301 00:45:15,020 --> 00:45:17,460 No grace. Not the way I want to go. Not the way. 302 00:45:18,500 --> 00:45:19,880 You know, H. St. Peter. 303 00:45:31,270 --> 00:45:37,810 Because It's important, you know it is important to be ready at all 304 00:45:37,810 --> 00:45:38,690 times 305 00:45:38,690 --> 00:45:45,410 You 306 00:45:45,410 --> 00:45:51,350 know then I thought like 307 00:45:51,350 --> 00:45:55,390 you know who came like a flash like it's not 308 00:45:57,290 --> 00:46:03,270 It's not like a global end, you know, a global apocalypse, because that 309 00:46:03,270 --> 00:46:05,570 certainly will occur. 310 00:46:06,170 --> 00:46:12,550 And that's when the most people will receive 311 00:46:12,550 --> 00:46:18,730 judgment at once. But every man receives judgment, 312 00:46:18,810 --> 00:46:24,310 you know, at our personal end. 313 00:46:26,090 --> 00:46:29,850 the prophecies that talk about wars and rumors of wars. 314 00:46:31,610 --> 00:46:37,490 People say, well, that was true then. That was true 2,000 years ago. It was 315 00:46:37,490 --> 00:46:41,310 true 500 years ago. It was true 25 years ago. It was true last year. 316 00:46:43,010 --> 00:46:44,910 Yeah, it was. It is. 317 00:46:45,490 --> 00:46:46,490 It is true. 318 00:46:47,750 --> 00:46:53,010 And it always is going to be true. And that's why it's a sign to each 319 00:46:53,010 --> 00:46:54,370 individual person that 320 00:46:56,490 --> 00:47:03,190 that the end time is coming, you know, and it's a reminder, 321 00:47:03,430 --> 00:47:08,350 it's a warning sign, a warning sign, a warning sign for each of us as we go 322 00:47:08,350 --> 00:47:09,630 through our day. 323 00:47:09,970 --> 00:47:15,270 We're told what the signs are and the signs are there, which is to say that at 324 00:47:15,270 --> 00:47:20,430 any moment that twinkling of an eye is going to, you know, take us down. 325 00:47:37,000 --> 00:47:39,800 I'm working on a little project that 326 00:47:39,800 --> 00:47:46,660 I want to share 327 00:47:46,660 --> 00:47:47,660 with you. 328 00:47:53,020 --> 00:47:56,340 I'm making you a tape of my favorite book. 329 00:47:58,400 --> 00:48:04,420 And it's longer than I thought. In the Bible, you know, it's like, it doesn't 330 00:48:04,420 --> 00:48:05,420 look like it's anything. 331 00:48:05,850 --> 00:48:07,070 This is 90 minutes. 332 00:48:07,910 --> 00:48:09,070 It's not all on here. 333 00:48:09,630 --> 00:48:10,630 It's John. 334 00:48:11,030 --> 00:48:16,990 This is 1 through 8 1⁄2, and then it ends. I flip the tape over, and this is 335 00:48:16,990 --> 00:48:23,850 8 1⁄2 through 17 1⁄2. There's still a little more, but... You 336 00:48:23,850 --> 00:48:29,990 know... I have a love for you, you know? 337 00:48:30,190 --> 00:48:34,070 And so to hear... And I want you... 338 00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:38,360 You know, I want you to be right. 339 00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:42,620 It's important to me that you are right. 340 00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:48,160 So I hope you have a tape player. 341 00:48:49,040 --> 00:48:50,860 Do you have a tape player? I do. Yeah. 342 00:48:51,280 --> 00:48:52,280 Good. 343 00:48:52,760 --> 00:48:57,840 Well, then I hope that you can hear in there, you know, care and concern and 344 00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:03,780 love because I'm trying to transmit to you. 345 00:49:04,200 --> 00:49:05,200 a degree, 346 00:49:06,160 --> 00:49:13,040 an amount of love, but inherent in the words that I'm reading is all 347 00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:14,040 the love in the world. 348 00:49:14,200 --> 00:49:18,320 And it's coming from Jesus Christ and it's coming from God. 349 00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:29,820 Well, I hope that this outmoded technology is strong enough to handle 350 00:49:29,820 --> 00:49:32,980 all that love and all that sentiment. 351 00:49:34,080 --> 00:49:35,840 Anyway, that's for you. Thank you. 352 00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:39,760 It's $2 for the tape, though. 353 00:50:12,700 --> 00:50:13,700 What's walking? 354 00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:16,200 Look. 355 00:50:18,460 --> 00:50:20,220 That ain't walking, I'll tell you that. 356 00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:25,560 If you stop on one of your feet, then you're not walking. It's just balancing, 357 00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:27,220 balancing, balancing. 358 00:50:28,840 --> 00:50:31,840 It's not... It's not its own thing. 359 00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:38,260 It's funny if you watch people walk in the mall and you just think, they're 360 00:50:38,260 --> 00:50:39,320 like, stick, stick. 361 00:50:43,530 --> 00:50:46,390 It's like most things, it doesn't stand up to that much scrutiny. 362 00:51:14,220 --> 00:51:19,820 Gospel according to John, chapter 1. 363 00:51:22,800 --> 00:51:29,360 Before the world was created, the Word already existed. 364 00:51:30,160 --> 00:51:33,700 He was with God and he was the same as God. 365 00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:37,620 From the very beginning, the Word was with God. 366 00:51:38,200 --> 00:51:40,420 And John gave this testimony. 367 00:51:42,570 --> 00:51:49,110 i saw the spirit come down like a dove from heaven and stay on him i still did 368 00:51:49,110 --> 00:51:54,470 not know that he was the one but god who sent me to baptize with water had said 369 00:51:54,470 --> 00:52:01,270 to me you will see the spirit come down and stay on a man he is the one 370 00:52:01,270 --> 00:52:07,690 who baptizes with the holy spirit i have seen it said john and i tell you that he 371 00:52:07,690 --> 00:52:08,810 is the son of god 372 00:52:11,660 --> 00:52:17,200 The next day John was standing there again with two of his disciples when he 373 00:52:17,200 --> 00:52:18,480 saw Jesus walking by. 374 00:52:19,020 --> 00:52:21,080 There is the Lamb of God, he said. 375 00:52:24,220 --> 00:52:31,180 So they went with him and saw where he lived and spent the rest 376 00:52:31,180 --> 00:52:32,180 of that day with him. 377 00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:37,640 One of them was Andrew, Simon Peter's brother. 378 00:52:38,020 --> 00:52:42,300 At once he found his brother Simon and told him, We have found the Messiah. 379 00:52:44,820 --> 00:52:46,680 Then he took Simon to Jesus. 380 00:52:47,940 --> 00:52:53,980 Jesus looked at him and said, Your name is Simon, son of John, but you will be 381 00:52:53,980 --> 00:52:54,980 called Cephas. 382 00:53:11,880 --> 00:53:12,880 you 383 00:53:52,810 --> 00:53:56,510 Let me pray real quick. Father, thank you for your word. It is a light unto 384 00:53:56,510 --> 00:53:57,468 our path. 385 00:53:57,470 --> 00:53:59,990 It is the truth that will set us free. 386 00:54:00,270 --> 00:54:05,550 And we ask God tonight that we listen to you and Holy Spirit, reveal more of your 387 00:54:05,550 --> 00:54:10,350 truth through my word tonight that you have given me. In Jesus' name, amen. 388 00:54:38,790 --> 00:54:43,710 to be set apart for holy use or to consecrate yourself unto the Lord. 389 00:54:44,350 --> 00:54:48,710 Justification is that position of being declared righteous before God. We just 390 00:54:48,710 --> 00:54:52,550 read Romans 4, 5, but to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that 391 00:54:52,550 --> 00:54:55,410 justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness. 392 00:54:55,870 --> 00:55:00,750 We also read last week Romans 5, 9, much more than being now justified by his 393 00:55:00,750 --> 00:55:03,530 blood, we should be saved from wrath through him. 394 00:55:04,170 --> 00:55:07,710 Justification is being declared righteous in the eyes of God. 395 00:55:08,710 --> 00:55:13,090 Sanctification is the growth in the life of a Christian in holiness, 396 00:55:13,410 --> 00:55:16,550 understanding, intent, thought, action, etc., etc. 397 00:55:16,930 --> 00:55:20,870 When a Christian understands the difference between justification and 398 00:55:20,870 --> 00:55:24,550 sanctification, well then they can understand the difference between what 399 00:55:24,550 --> 00:55:27,090 saves a person and what doesn't save a person. 400 00:55:27,470 --> 00:55:32,410 We read several scriptures last week that teach us how we are justified. 401 00:55:32,830 --> 00:55:34,070 Romans 4 and 3. 402 00:55:34,540 --> 00:55:37,760 For what sayeth the scripture, Abraham believed God and it was counted unto him 403 00:55:37,760 --> 00:55:38,760 for righteousness. 404 00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:43,200 Romans 5.1, therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God. 405 00:55:43,660 --> 00:55:47,600 Galatians 2.16, knowing that a man is not justified by the works of the law, 406 00:55:47,720 --> 00:55:50,020 but by the faith of Jesus Christ. 407 00:55:50,420 --> 00:55:54,360 The Bible teaches us that we are justified by God and declared righteous 408 00:55:54,360 --> 00:55:58,580 before him, not by keeping the law or by works, but by what? 409 00:55:58,960 --> 00:56:00,540 Faith in Jesus Christ. 410 00:56:02,360 --> 00:56:08,380 Righteousness. is not earned or retained by any effort of the person. 411 00:56:08,860 --> 00:56:15,520 Being justified is based completely and solely upon Jesus' sacrifice on the 412 00:56:15,520 --> 00:56:20,480 cross. No works are necessary whatsoever to obtain justification. 413 00:56:20,980 --> 00:56:24,600 If works were involved, then it wouldn't be a gift. 414 00:56:24,800 --> 00:56:29,740 And the Bible says, for by grace are you saved through faith. It is a gift of 415 00:56:29,740 --> 00:56:32,080 God, not of works. I don't know any other human being. 416 00:56:32,330 --> 00:56:33,330 that is like him. 417 00:56:33,770 --> 00:56:36,030 There's only one Jesus. 418 00:56:37,490 --> 00:56:38,750 And I love it. Don't you? 419 00:56:38,970 --> 00:56:39,970 Yeah. Come on. 420 00:57:03,379 --> 00:57:04,379 Here we go. 421 00:57:06,260 --> 00:57:07,260 Here we go. 422 00:58:49,960 --> 00:58:53,000 Make us truly thankful for these and our many blessings. 423 00:58:54,380 --> 00:58:56,260 These things we ask in thy name. 424 00:58:56,880 --> 00:58:57,880 Amen. 425 00:58:58,840 --> 00:59:00,280 It's showtime. 426 00:59:01,380 --> 00:59:07,440 Just like to have both you and I here to share this 427 00:59:07,440 --> 00:59:09,540 extravagant meal. 428 00:59:10,260 --> 00:59:15,560 It's lovely to be here. I appreciate the invite very much. We had a lovely 429 00:59:15,560 --> 00:59:16,560 service today. 430 00:59:19,500 --> 00:59:22,260 brought me to his church. 431 00:59:22,500 --> 00:59:23,500 Oh. 432 00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:27,740 You been going a lot lately? 433 00:59:28,040 --> 00:59:29,540 Yeah, very regularly. 434 00:59:30,940 --> 00:59:32,200 At least once a week. 435 00:59:33,380 --> 00:59:34,380 That's good. 436 00:59:36,540 --> 00:59:40,220 Always good to be on the good side of the man upstairs. 437 00:59:40,780 --> 00:59:41,780 Yes, sir. 438 00:59:45,000 --> 00:59:47,240 The congregation at that church likes it. 439 00:59:47,790 --> 00:59:53,490 a mixture of type music, like some of your more, I won't say classical, but 440 00:59:53,490 --> 01:00:00,410 new classics, and then some like modern day, and then some like the old time 441 01:00:00,410 --> 01:00:01,830 hymns. Right, right. 442 01:00:02,890 --> 01:00:05,370 The spirituals, whatever, things of that nature. 443 01:00:06,370 --> 01:00:11,630 What about yourself? What do you like? I like pretty much the old time and 444 01:00:11,630 --> 01:00:12,650 spirituals. 445 01:00:13,770 --> 01:00:16,090 So these will be songs from the fields and such? 446 01:00:16,920 --> 01:00:22,640 songs that were written in earlier times yeah i think so a lot of them back uh 447 01:00:22,640 --> 01:00:25,180 probably some of them weren't even written they were kind of handed down i 448 01:00:25,180 --> 01:00:29,720 guess and somewhere along the way they got written right right but uh oh maybe 449 01:00:29,720 --> 01:00:35,800 we get to sing or harmonize something after we beat our face oh that'd be 450 01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:42,360 lovely that'd be lovely it's reasonably peaceful where i was and because of the 451 01:00:42,360 --> 01:00:45,960 technical job that i do well protected 452 01:00:46,680 --> 01:00:51,420 Pretty well protected, you know, so it was good from that point of view. 453 01:00:51,760 --> 01:00:55,860 Yeah, no, there was time to do some reading and thinking and talking and, 454 01:00:55,860 --> 01:01:02,820 you know, I met some people out there who, you know, showed me and taught 455 01:01:02,820 --> 01:01:08,360 me things I'd never come across before, you know, so it was good. 456 01:01:09,340 --> 01:01:10,520 Did you get scared much? 457 01:01:13,420 --> 01:01:14,740 No, not really, no. 458 01:01:15,440 --> 01:01:16,680 I wasn't scared there much. 459 01:01:17,180 --> 01:01:18,180 I wasn't. 460 01:01:18,860 --> 01:01:24,400 I mean, you're aware of being at this sort of historic 461 01:01:24,400 --> 01:01:30,940 moment of being part of something historic that the whole world is 462 01:01:30,940 --> 01:01:31,940 watching. 463 01:01:32,400 --> 01:01:36,160 I tried one of these songs. It's one of my favorites. 464 01:01:36,840 --> 01:01:43,840 And since you don't sing, Sean, maybe I might join in, but 465 01:01:43,840 --> 01:01:44,840 I don't know. 466 01:01:45,390 --> 01:01:46,550 Take My Hand, Precious Lord. 467 01:01:46,790 --> 01:01:48,570 Do you remember that one? Oh, yeah, of course. 468 01:01:48,810 --> 01:01:53,710 Okay. Do you know that one? I don't. No? Okay. I recognize that one when it 469 01:01:53,710 --> 01:01:54,710 starts. 470 01:01:54,830 --> 01:01:55,830 Okay. 471 01:01:56,270 --> 01:01:59,490 Precious Lord, take my hand. 472 01:01:59,930 --> 01:02:01,670 Lead me on. 473 01:02:02,230 --> 01:02:03,890 Let me stand. 474 01:02:04,990 --> 01:02:06,690 I am tired. 475 01:02:07,690 --> 01:02:09,450 I am weak. 476 01:02:15,120 --> 01:02:22,100 Through the storm, through the night, lead me 477 01:02:22,100 --> 01:02:26,080 on to the light. 478 01:02:26,480 --> 01:02:31,800 Take my hand, precious Lord, 479 01:02:32,760 --> 01:02:36,620 lead me home. 480 01:02:39,480 --> 01:02:44,300 Precious Lord, take my hand. 481 01:02:49,320 --> 01:02:55,760 me stand I am tired I am 482 01:02:55,760 --> 01:03:02,560 weak Lord I'm worn through 483 01:03:02,560 --> 01:03:03,800 the storm 484 01:03:19,600 --> 01:03:20,700 Gracious Lord. 485 01:04:10,350 --> 01:04:11,350 He's resting. 486 01:04:12,630 --> 01:04:13,710 He'll be sleeping. 487 01:04:14,350 --> 01:04:15,350 No time. 488 01:04:16,050 --> 01:04:17,190 He's a nice man. 489 01:04:18,390 --> 01:04:20,210 That's the truth. Yeah. 490 01:04:20,430 --> 01:04:21,930 He made me feel at home. 491 01:04:25,090 --> 01:04:27,670 Reminded me of home, actually. Singing. It's beautiful. 492 01:04:29,170 --> 01:04:30,170 Nice. 493 01:04:31,370 --> 01:04:32,370 Yeah. 494 01:04:33,640 --> 01:04:39,080 It amazes me that with all the things that he could perceive as strikes 495 01:04:39,080 --> 01:04:43,580 against him, that he can still give in that way. 496 01:04:45,220 --> 01:04:51,220 He's taken his hardships, I guess, and dealt with them in a very 497 01:04:51,220 --> 01:04:57,140 admirable way, very humble. 498 01:04:59,960 --> 01:05:01,320 I think he... 499 01:05:02,730 --> 01:05:08,510 He's a very good example in that way, in the way that it seems as if he... 500 01:05:08,510 --> 01:05:15,210 It's like an imitation of 501 01:05:15,210 --> 01:05:22,090 Christ, like carrying your burdens as 502 01:05:22,090 --> 01:05:25,530 if they're blessings almost. It seems like it's crazy. 503 01:05:26,670 --> 01:05:29,150 But yeah, the humility. 504 01:05:35,760 --> 01:05:37,080 Hey, take your shoes and socks off. 505 01:05:38,200 --> 01:05:39,200 I'm pretty comfy. 506 01:05:39,600 --> 01:05:40,600 No, no. 507 01:05:41,140 --> 01:05:42,140 Just take them off. 508 01:06:34,440 --> 01:06:35,440 Know what's coming? 509 01:06:45,220 --> 01:06:46,540 You don't have to do that. 510 01:06:46,800 --> 01:06:50,080 Will you listen to what I was just talking about? 511 01:06:51,960 --> 01:06:53,440 Look, your socks don't even match. 512 01:06:54,120 --> 01:06:55,800 Give me this foot, please. 513 01:06:57,320 --> 01:06:58,500 Please, raise it up. 514 01:07:00,360 --> 01:07:03,440 I'm doing all the work. You don't have any reason to complain here. 515 01:07:23,660 --> 01:07:24,660 Okay, rise up. 516 01:07:40,780 --> 01:07:41,920 Gimme this one. 517 01:08:21,840 --> 01:08:22,899 Yeah, I'm gonna stay over here. 518 01:08:23,319 --> 01:08:26,939 So, I don't know, I'm actually about ready for bed. 519 01:08:30,300 --> 01:08:33,540 But I'm very grateful that you came over. 520 01:08:35,260 --> 01:08:36,260 It was a good day. 521 01:09:16,130 --> 01:09:17,750 Okay, here's your change in receipt. 522 01:09:18,470 --> 01:09:22,050 Here's the phenobarbital. It's going to be one tablet twice a day, and if it's 523 01:09:22,050 --> 01:09:24,930 not working or something's wrong, definitely give us a call, okay? 524 01:09:59,200 --> 01:10:03,060 How do these days, how do they seem to you? 525 01:10:07,560 --> 01:10:09,920 These days here at our shop here? 526 01:10:10,420 --> 01:10:16,200 These days in your life, like, do you feel like you're in a 527 01:10:16,200 --> 01:10:20,300 transitional moment? 528 01:10:20,740 --> 01:10:21,740 Uh-huh. 529 01:10:22,260 --> 01:10:23,660 Do you feel like you're in a holding pattern? 530 01:10:28,840 --> 01:10:30,820 I haven't really settled since I came back, you know. 531 01:10:31,740 --> 01:10:38,740 Spent that time down in Virginia Beach and just 532 01:10:38,740 --> 01:10:39,740 not settled. 533 01:10:42,200 --> 01:10:43,300 Do you feel scared? 534 01:10:47,260 --> 01:10:48,500 Between you and me? 535 01:10:48,820 --> 01:10:50,580 Yeah. Between you and me. 536 01:10:52,140 --> 01:10:53,580 My whole fucking life. 537 01:10:57,740 --> 01:10:59,300 When you know you don't have to feel scared. 538 01:11:05,900 --> 01:11:09,940 You don't have to feel scared, man. 539 01:11:17,420 --> 01:11:24,420 When I was a kid, a priest came to the school and he talked 540 01:11:24,420 --> 01:11:25,500 about the Lord's Prayer. 541 01:11:26,360 --> 01:11:30,690 Yeah. He gave us all a prayer card, a picture of Jesus on it. 542 01:11:31,430 --> 01:11:34,370 I was kind of a pious kid. 543 01:11:34,970 --> 01:11:35,970 Took it home. 544 01:11:39,090 --> 01:11:42,370 I taped it on the side of my bed. 545 01:11:43,970 --> 01:11:46,030 I would say the Lord's Prayer every night. 546 01:11:48,290 --> 01:11:50,570 Later in the school year, he came back again. 547 01:11:51,940 --> 01:11:54,720 He said, the Hail Holy Queen, you know this prayer? 548 01:11:54,940 --> 01:11:57,740 Hail Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, hail our life, our sweetness, our hope. 549 01:11:58,620 --> 01:12:00,900 In the end, he gave us a prayer card. 550 01:12:01,400 --> 01:12:03,460 This one had Our Lady on it. 551 01:12:04,820 --> 01:12:07,540 I took it home and I put it beside the other one. 552 01:12:08,640 --> 01:12:12,200 And then every night I would pray the Our Lord's Prayer and then I would pray 553 01:12:12,200 --> 01:12:13,200 the Hail Holy Queen. 554 01:12:13,280 --> 01:12:14,280 Right. 555 01:12:15,580 --> 01:12:21,000 But I would look at these pictures while I did it. Yeah. And one night after, 556 01:12:24,250 --> 01:12:27,530 I realized it was the same face. 557 01:12:29,410 --> 01:12:30,790 What do you mean it was the same face? 558 01:12:32,050 --> 01:12:33,370 They were the same face. 559 01:12:33,610 --> 01:12:37,930 Jesus' face was a woman's face with a beard on it. It was the same face. 560 01:12:39,670 --> 01:12:43,570 And I knew they were fucking with me, you know? 561 01:12:44,670 --> 01:12:48,190 On some level, I didn't even understand. I don't even understand it now. 562 01:12:50,230 --> 01:12:51,590 I don't trust the man. 563 01:12:52,190 --> 01:12:53,570 who comes with the message. 564 01:12:58,970 --> 01:13:03,630 This thing that looks so foreign and strange to you, scary, 565 01:13:03,990 --> 01:13:07,290 it's simple. 566 01:13:11,770 --> 01:13:17,370 It's salvation and it's simple. 567 01:13:21,580 --> 01:13:28,260 If you look at this side, look at this side 568 01:13:28,260 --> 01:13:34,140 of salvation, you see that there's a place for you already. There's a place 569 01:13:34,140 --> 01:13:35,140 for you waiting. 570 01:13:37,700 --> 01:13:38,700 And it's easy. 571 01:13:40,140 --> 01:13:41,520 Man, being saved is easy. 572 01:13:43,720 --> 01:13:49,120 Because there's people waiting by that place that's made for you. 573 01:13:51,820 --> 01:13:53,080 And they know how to love you. 574 01:13:54,720 --> 01:14:00,740 And God is waiting for your love with, 575 01:14:00,820 --> 01:14:05,840 man, bucket loads of love. He's just ready to pour it on you. 576 01:14:08,100 --> 01:14:10,940 I'm waiting for you to be saved. 577 01:14:31,050 --> 01:14:35,010 That incident at work last week was attacks. 578 01:14:35,470 --> 01:14:37,410 I mean, I've had those since I was a teenager. 579 01:14:40,450 --> 01:14:44,750 It's not just anxiety, it's like a complete loss of self. 580 01:14:45,950 --> 01:14:51,670 You're so disoriented, you're so frightened, so completely lost. 581 01:14:56,410 --> 01:14:58,910 And I've carried that with me all this... 582 01:14:59,530 --> 01:15:02,730 my whole life, and it's become who I am. 583 01:15:03,670 --> 01:15:07,570 My burden is who I am. It defines me. 584 01:15:07,890 --> 01:15:09,950 It makes my decisions for me. 585 01:15:13,710 --> 01:15:18,110 You know, and I realized last week I went to a doctor for the first time, and 586 01:15:18,110 --> 01:15:23,730 he told me, he just looked at me like another patient, not like a fucking 587 01:15:23,730 --> 01:15:28,910 monster, and said, benzodiazepine, you know. 588 01:15:31,500 --> 01:15:33,460 I mean, he read my symptoms to me. 589 01:15:34,700 --> 01:15:35,940 There was no mystery. 590 01:15:36,240 --> 01:15:37,960 What's benzodiazepine? 591 01:15:38,220 --> 01:15:40,080 It's a chemical. It's a drug. 592 01:15:41,500 --> 01:15:43,060 He gave you the drug? 593 01:15:43,440 --> 01:15:44,440 Mm-hmm. 594 01:15:46,080 --> 01:15:47,120 And you take it? 595 01:15:51,500 --> 01:15:57,200 Describing symptoms, that's... That's not magic. 596 01:15:58,800 --> 01:16:01,880 I can describe the symptoms to you. It sounded like magic to my ear. 597 01:16:04,260 --> 01:16:08,400 Because he understood what I... He understood how to turn you off. 598 01:16:08,860 --> 01:16:13,280 No. No, he heard my burden. 599 01:16:13,660 --> 01:16:15,060 He knew what it was. 600 01:16:15,480 --> 01:16:18,980 I don't want... You don't... It's like... It's not that... The pills are 601 01:16:18,980 --> 01:16:23,260 something that... It keeps you from moving forward. It keeps you... It 602 01:16:23,260 --> 01:16:26,220 stops... Your feet from putting one in front of the other. What do you know 603 01:16:26,220 --> 01:16:29,040 about it? You don't know shit. What do you mean I don't know about it? I'm 604 01:16:29,040 --> 01:16:30,620 sitting right here. You don't even know the name of it. One minute ago you 605 01:16:30,620 --> 01:16:32,820 didn't know the name of it and now you're going to tell me what it does. 606 01:16:32,920 --> 01:16:34,480 You don't know. I've heard of these other ones. I've heard of other ones. 607 01:16:36,200 --> 01:16:37,880 You don't know. I'm sorry. 608 01:16:39,560 --> 01:16:44,220 It's... I 609 01:16:44,220 --> 01:16:51,260 can 610 01:16:51,260 --> 01:16:52,260 see you at this. 611 01:16:54,550 --> 01:16:55,550 Pivotal point. 612 01:16:57,550 --> 01:16:59,530 And you're going to fall one way or the other. 613 01:16:59,750 --> 01:17:04,610 And what I'm here for is to be sure that you fall into... No, I'm not going to 614 01:17:04,610 --> 01:17:07,510 fall. I'm not going to fall, Ike. I'm not going to fall anymore. Good, that's 615 01:17:07,510 --> 01:17:09,510 what I want to hear. Because you're going to rise. I'm not going to fall. 616 01:17:09,590 --> 01:17:10,590 I'm going to choose. 617 01:17:10,630 --> 01:17:15,010 I'm going to choose. Yes. With my eyes open. With your eyes open, exactly. Not 618 01:17:15,010 --> 01:17:19,070 clouded by a magic... I'm done with the hocus pocus. 619 01:17:19,310 --> 01:17:20,310 This is clear. 620 01:17:20,520 --> 01:17:24,060 It says, I understand this, and that's how I'm going to move. That's how I'm 621 01:17:24,060 --> 01:17:25,320 going to go forward. 622 01:17:25,720 --> 01:17:27,820 I understand it. That's not going forward. 623 01:17:28,060 --> 01:17:29,420 You saved the world. I got to go. 624 01:17:29,640 --> 01:17:30,740 I'm not saving the world. I got to go. 625 01:17:32,860 --> 01:17:36,380 Man, right now, you're at a very critical moment in your life. 626 01:17:37,280 --> 01:17:38,179 Extremely critical. 627 01:17:38,180 --> 01:17:42,100 Very, very important moment in your life. You're at the tipping point. 628 01:17:42,340 --> 01:17:45,020 You don't have to be, you say, since you were a teenager. And what happened 629 01:17:45,020 --> 01:17:47,560 before then? Before then, you were clear, and you were clean, and you were 630 01:17:47,560 --> 01:17:48,560 innocent. 631 01:17:50,320 --> 01:17:53,500 And you can clean yourself again. I haven't got time for this. 632 01:17:53,900 --> 01:17:54,980 You got time. 633 01:17:55,700 --> 01:17:59,740 I've got time. I love you. I've got time. Jesus loves you. You have time. 634 01:18:05,320 --> 01:18:09,500 All right. Take this, huh? Take this. 635 01:18:10,080 --> 01:18:11,600 Yeah. Right? 636 01:18:13,060 --> 01:18:14,060 All right. 637 01:18:16,400 --> 01:18:17,400 This is... 638 01:18:18,410 --> 01:18:20,890 I've said some of these things. I've felt some of these things. 639 01:18:22,210 --> 01:18:23,670 This is an exciting time. 640 01:18:24,590 --> 01:18:27,770 This is a wonderful time, a beautiful time, a glorious time for you. 641 01:18:34,990 --> 01:18:35,990 This is your time. 642 01:18:37,910 --> 01:18:39,330 There's something waiting for you. 643 01:18:41,930 --> 01:18:45,150 Through baptism... I gotta go, man. I'm sorry. 644 01:18:45,350 --> 01:18:46,350 I'm sorry. 645 01:18:47,130 --> 01:18:48,130 Thank you. 646 01:18:48,900 --> 01:18:49,900 I gotta go. 647 01:19:41,740 --> 01:19:42,740 Say goodbye. 648 01:20:30,790 --> 01:20:33,750 Keep your eyes 649 01:20:51,990 --> 01:20:53,490 I think it's not a running nose. 650 01:21:23,690 --> 01:21:24,690 When did Whitman die? 651 01:21:24,770 --> 01:21:27,650 I'm not even sure. 652 01:21:28,490 --> 01:21:29,910 I could look at my book. 653 01:21:33,230 --> 01:21:38,970 How do you go back in time? 654 01:21:39,570 --> 01:21:41,290 I don't know how you link up. 655 01:21:41,730 --> 01:21:42,910 It's kind of difficult. 656 01:23:11,760 --> 01:23:12,960 You said damn! 657 01:23:40,970 --> 01:23:42,390 No word from Ike this morning? 658 01:23:43,030 --> 01:23:44,870 No, ain't heard nothing out of Ike, man. 659 01:23:45,850 --> 01:23:47,010 That's unlike him too. 660 01:23:47,250 --> 01:23:50,310 Yeah, yeah, he'd usually call in. Yeah, I don't know what's up with that. 661 01:24:05,450 --> 01:24:07,250 Quiet around work today. 662 01:24:26,860 --> 01:24:28,020 Ever been okay with you? 663 01:24:34,940 --> 01:24:36,120 Dad had a stroke. 664 01:24:43,180 --> 01:24:44,180 It's gonna be all right. 665 01:25:13,100 --> 01:25:14,100 Would you give them my best? 666 01:25:15,040 --> 01:25:16,040 Sure. 667 01:25:17,020 --> 01:25:18,020 Here's your chili. 668 01:25:18,140 --> 01:25:19,800 Mmm. Thank you. 669 01:25:21,300 --> 01:25:22,540 What else do you guys need? 670 01:25:24,440 --> 01:25:25,900 Okay, enjoy it. 671 01:25:29,180 --> 01:25:30,180 Mind? 672 01:25:30,440 --> 01:25:31,440 No, please. 673 01:25:33,840 --> 01:25:37,660 Lord, thanks for good food, good company. 674 01:25:37,920 --> 01:25:38,920 Amen. 675 01:25:56,780 --> 01:25:57,780 You all right? 676 01:26:02,220 --> 01:26:03,220 Yeah. 677 01:26:07,480 --> 01:26:08,480 I'm good. 678 01:26:19,960 --> 01:26:20,960 Don't do that. 679 01:26:21,380 --> 01:26:22,380 Wallace. 680 01:26:32,020 --> 01:26:33,020 Don't do that. 681 01:27:17,410 --> 01:27:20,210 Thank you. 682 01:29:48,030 --> 01:29:54,970 Precious Lord Take my hand Lead me on 683 01:29:55,790 --> 01:29:57,030 Let me stand. 684 01:29:57,790 --> 01:30:02,050 I am tired. I am weak. 685 01:30:02,350 --> 01:30:04,390 I am worn. 686 01:30:06,530 --> 01:30:13,070 Through the storm, through the night, lead me 687 01:30:13,070 --> 01:30:16,110 on to the light. 688 01:30:16,330 --> 01:30:22,910 Take my hand, precious Lord, lead me home. 689 01:30:37,900 --> 01:30:44,340 when the darkness appears and the night 690 01:30:44,340 --> 01:30:50,780 draws near and the day is 691 01:30:50,780 --> 01:30:57,620 past and gone at 692 01:30:57,620 --> 01:31:03,300 the river i stand guide my feet 693 01:31:03,300 --> 01:31:05,260 hold my 694 01:31:06,700 --> 01:31:12,860 Take my hand, precious Lord, lead me home